"Why do you think people treat you like this? Why do you think men can bulldoze over your feelings when you know what's happening isn't okay with you?" my therapist asked me during one of our sessions. I gave some bogus answer, accepting no responsibility for my current situation whatsoever.Read More
April 30th, 2017 - My last blog post. And my how things have changed.
A lot has happened since then - things that will later, I'm sure, turn into future blog posts. Struggles, challenges, obstacles, huge valleys of my life, things that blind sided me, and things I saw coming all along that I was avoiding dealing with.
My last show. Post show blues. A bad rebound. A downward spiral with my body image. A short bought with binge eating. A lot of therapy. And, a divorce.Read More
A few weeks ago I was given the suggestion to blog about balancing a fitness lifestyle with social life, work, special events, etc. Since I'm finishing up a phase of my life that was, to some, very unbalanced, I thought it might be a good opportunity to give my perspective on this.Read More
I'm back again after an exciting two weeks to share my experience at the Fox Cities Showdown!
First of all, I am so glad I decided to do another show after the Indiana Muscle. Even though the Indiana Muscle was my first show, I was still pretty disappointed when I didn't place. Yes, I was extremely proud of myself for accomplishing a goal I set out to do many weeks prior, but it's still a bummer to walk away empty handed.Read More
I have secretly wanted to compete in a body building competition for well over a year. I fought the urge, acted like I thought it was stupid, got annoyed when people asked if I had any interest in it, and wrote it off for as long as I possibly could. Why did I do this? Because I was scared. When I started prep 16 weeks ago, that was the leanest my body had ever been at that point. I was not a skinny girl in highschool, so being lean does not come naturally for me. I have struggled with weight issues my entire life. I didn’t truly know if a bikini competitor physique was even possible for me.. and if it was, I had doubts with myself that I would be able to put in the work to accomplish it. What if I tried and failed? What if I told people I was competing and gave up half way through prep? These were all questions running through my mind. However, I’m glad I took that time to really think about whether or not a bikini competition was for me, because it takes a lot of commitment and it’s certainly not something you want to just jump into. Maybe you’ve been considering taking the leap and doing a competition like this. If so, I’ve compiled a list of things to consider before deciding to compete.Read More